FlibbiTV...playing the hits.

I'm in California. Floating a bit, but then crashing on the rocks periodically. The tough conversations, check lists, opportunities to hope, and truth of all colliding in my head. It stills my hands, and glazes my eyes.

At night there are rabbit holes. I follow them around and stop short of apocalyptic ends, finding hope again in the things of the moment. God, it's hard work to stay there.

As I get ready for Kenya and Rwanda on Tuesday, I am playing the win/lose. Maybe it's my upbringing, maybe it's plain fear, maybe it's human nature. Maybe all of that. There's a sacrifice in leaving right now; the win in this won't be known until we touch down in Nairobi. Yet, the best thing for me right now may be to leave the country.



It will be a slow give. And I will come back different. Right now I wonder how that will impact the next few months. Ugh. One day at a time, or rather, as Bananie has said, one moment at a time. Always love.